Just Another Page in My So-Called Life

Seriously, my life is fucked up the arse and I can't see it getting better any time soon.

I think what I need is the opportunity to just wipe the slate clean and start all over somewhere where I don't know anyone and have no one to depend on. As it is, leaving here and going somewhere else would be almost financially the best idea since I could then get rid of my car insurance and put my loving Sherlock in storage until I get my shit together enough to free him onto the road again.

Yes, my car's name is Sherlock - as in 'No Shit, Sherlock' - but that's a different subject waiting to be written about my compulsion to name my inanimate objects.

So, before me lay two choices that I could take to better my life.

1. A friend of mine from high school (ok, our mothers worked together and are friends so by default we're friends as well, but she's a a good friend none-the-less) is right now in Banff working at a resort. So, through her I have an in for my resume which happens to sport a couple of years of resort work. By moving there I would know no one and would have to rely wholly on myself to make friends and have a real life.

2. Through a different family friend, I have an in to work possibly in Taiwan teaching people conversational English. Admittedly, this would be an amazing way for me to see the world, but to travel that far by myself is a scary idea. Plus, my dad really wants me to go but his constant pushing to go is pissing me off and making me really just not want to go at all. Also, it seems a little sketchy to me... but I don't have all the information yet so that remains to be seen.

This brings about another subject; my incessant need to procrastinate on everything.

Hey, it's the reason that I had to leave school (basically) and it's the reason why I have yet to really apply to any jobs around here. Granted, I don't know for sure whether or not the job I have now is going to be over come Labour Day like it was last year - the downfall of working at a seasonal resort - but that's what I'm planning for and nothing else has been said to the contrary.

Then there has been this last week that just adds to my ever falling apart life.

First, on Sunday, I shattered a glass window at work. It was an accident, don't get me wrong, and it happened while I was cleaning said window which is really more of a door to the novelty ice cream freezer. Seriously, it was broken to begin with and it was said broken bit that came off as I was putting it back on after cleaning it and caused a chain reaction where the rest fell. had it of happened to anyone else at any other time, it would have been a comical sight to see. Seriously, I can still picture the sheer fraction of a second where it all shattered into tiny pieces. It really was a sight to behold even though it invoked absolute terror after the fact.

Thankfully, that was rectified the next day with the old one acting as a replacement until new ones can be ordered.

But then comes the coup d'etat; my computer was the recipient of the BSOD and has died for good I fear. Right now I've commandeered my father's computer - a fact which has him acting like a toddler because he hates to share. He acted the same way when I tried to teach him how to use the GPS. 'Tried' being the operative word there. I do believe that that ended in a screaming match...

Anyways, the point of this is that my life is shit but at least I currently have a job. Speaking of which, I need to sleep since I work in the morning.