There are two things that I should be doing right now. Writing this blog is not one of them, and neither is watching Sean Connery in First Knight. Of course, those are the things that I am doing instead of A. writing my writing assignment that was due last Wednesday for peer editing, and B. studying for my pop culture midterm that I have in roughly 10 hours.
I think that it's safe to say that I have officially screwed myself.
The thing that really bothers me is that I don't know why I do it. I know that I should be working on my school work, that I should be getting the best grades that I can, that I should be going to class every day, but still I don't.
It's like all I want to do is sit as a lump and do... nothing. I want to write, cook, sew, paint. There are so many things that I want to to and yet I cannot. It's as if I am destined to have everything grow around me while I disappear into the background.
I wish that I knew how to break this cycle and just be a normal student who studies and gets her work done.
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